OK. I’ve been a larger lady (heffa, cuddly, fat however you want to say it) for 20 years. I put on the majority of my weight after my dad died due to depression. For those last 20 years I’ve been trying to get down to my ideal weight of 10 stone 4lb. I’ve tried The Cambridge Diet (lost 5 stone but put it back on), Slim Fast (lost 2 stone but put it back on), The Sausage Diet (just eating 1 sausage sandwich per day), The Orange Diet (eating nothing but oranges all day – ouch – caused cystitis), Slimming World (I lost 9lbs the first week and I got told off – yep, TOLD OFF for losing so much in a week), Weight Watchers (was ok but incredibly boring and unfulfilling as the meal sizes were tiny) and then using MyNetDiary counting my own calories – which works really well until I get bored. This is the biggest problem I have.
I try to incorporate alternative versions of food – shirataki noodles for pasta, turkey bacon for regular bacon, low fat mayonnaise for spread, thins for slices of bread but still I get bored. When I’m in the right mindset I lose weight well. Although I can’t exercise apart from leg weights and barbells, I try my damnest to get the weight off but 2-3 months into it, the willpower just seems to disappear. Then no matter how hard I try I just can’t get back on the straight and narrow again.
I’ve gone down the road and asked my diabetes specialist to put me forward for NHS funding for a gastric band. Initially I was approved but because I had to look after my Mum and couldn’t get anyone to look after her for the duration of the operation I had to refuse the date offered. I then asked him 18 months later when Mum had been put in the care home if he could sort a date out for me as I wanted to go ahead with it. This time they refused saying I had to do 2 years of hospital run weight management. I have now decided that I am going to get a loan out. I cannot carry on being this large – and certainly can’t take 2 years out of my life doing what I do normally and failing – if I had been able to lose the weight on my own, I wouldn’t be going for an operation would I??? So I’m getting a loan to do it privately instead.
Terrified at what options I have, do I go bypass or band? I have no idea so this week I went a wandering on the net and found WLSurgery.com – a UK based weight loss surgery forum. So hopefully in the next few weeks I’ll get enough information to make my decision.
It’s going to be a bumpy one – but if you want to follow my journey, watch this space.
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